This word is used widely in the world of plant medicines, but I've never seen anyone actually explain what it means. Rose had been my strongest teacher of surrender and trust and asked me to speak on that a bit.
When you come into any form of healing ceremony, plant work, Dieta, etc with clear and heartfelt intentions, they are always met, more often than not in unexpected ways that are difficult to understand with the mind or analyze. Spirit and any plant spirit has its own divine orchestration of the timing, order, and manner they answer a prayer or intention.
For me, a huge part of surrender comes in the recognition that legitimately everything that happens (or doesn't happen) when you make a strong prayer and open a healing container IS the process itself. Every thought, judgement, or fear that arises in the mind, every internal emotional reaction, and every outer situation and circumstance becomes a direct reflection of this prayer.
When you are able to witness all of these often difficult things as divinely orchestrated and a direct result of the initial intention you held, you are more easily and gracefully able to navigate the path of least resistance through the process that arises, and receive from the plants the teaching and wisdom they are imparting in the moment....you come to a greater understanding of exactly how they are working for you.
The unfolding of whatever you are moving through becomes very graceful and fluid, no matter how intense or dense the qualities of energy or emotions become, the transmutation of them becomes effortless.
This has become reflected in the way I approach life in general over time outside of ceremony. A shift from a lens of victimization and seeing challenges as some outside force working against me to a lens of asking "what could this be teaching me", or "how is this part of the answer of a prayer I have made". With this shift, granted very difficult at first, there is always clarity and understanding that follows.
A story comes to mind in this sharing, I remember an Ayahuasca ceremony many years ago where I had an intention of understanding the overall sense of abandonment that was at the time at the forefront of my daily state of being and relationship with the world. In this ceremony, I felt absolutely no connection with the medicine and it felt like nothing was happening. The facilitator offered multiple doses, and I went for all 3, even having a small 4th. Throughout the ceremony I was very much in resistance, becoming angry at Ayahuasca for "abandoning me", when I had always connected so clearly and deeply, feeling judgement toward the facilitator that they were doing something wrong, self judgement and blame that I did something wrong, the feeling I was being punished, all these things I carried guilt and shame around etc. It took me almost the entire 6 hours to realize that all of those things and more were directly related to my intention of exploring this feeling of abandonment and the process itself unfolding. When that hit me, I had a strong purge, finally felt the medicine as I usually do, and the facilitator closed the ceremony, further fueling this process of abandonment.
Just one example of countless, but felt to share food for thought.
Blessings in your journey to surrender <3
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